got my freaking net back

i dunno what to say anymore
it just doesnt flow like it used to
i have so many thoughts in my head, but i just cant put pen to paper
its cause its been so damn long that the flows just stopped
but i'll try my best :]




Lauren was right. You think at a couple of month that your love is super strong and all that, but the months to come, oh boy does your love become stronger and ALL THAT


How can I plan on forever when I wasn’t planning on you?


I’d climb every mountain just cause it was there, I’d swim to the ends of the earth just to prove that there is no end, I’d walk the highest dune just to find one that’s higher, and I’ll love you with all my heart just to let you know that you mean the world to me


I’ve found the guy that calls me beautiful not hot, the one that kisses my forehead not lips.


Whenever we kiss goodbye and walk off in opposite directions, I turn around to watch you walk away. To make sure that you are actually there and I didn’t dream that last kiss. I cant even leave you without kissing you twice, I dunno why but it’s a reflex now.


Perfection is everyones own opinion. What they see through their eyes. That’s why to me, you are perfect.


Being in love means you want to spend forever with them, and right now I don’t know if I really want to.


If you do it, you should be able to take it.


Whats a good or bad girlfriend? Is there a standard to live upto or a test to pass, cause at the moment I feel as though I’m terribly failing


It doesn’t kill to tell the truth, unless you’re the one secretly smoking.



Do not dwell on dreams and forget the world around. That’s the biggest mistake people make, leaving behind their futures.


Theres no point in pretending that forever is possible, that’s why I’m so blunt


I know that I’m not gonna be your “one and only” and it doesn’t crush me. It’s a fact that I’ve accepted from the very beginning. Cause even if its another chick that makes you happy, I don’t mind cause u being happy is the only thing that matter to me


For chicks, to get a guy jealous, its satisfaction. It feeds our egos


You’ve become a better person, you do everything I want, theres not a single flaw, and that’s what scares me. I don’t want something perfect, I like the bumps along the road, the times we stumble cause without them it would be just plain boring.


It’s hard to love you as much as before cause there are so many things changing. As harsh as it may sound, you aren’t the same person I fell in love with. Yes I’m still in love with you, its just that…


There’s this haunting voice in my head telling me to leave you cause it’ll happen again


Its easy to pack your bags and leave, but to stay and fight your battle, is the right thing to do


I thought I was looking for love, but I was actually looking for you


Hooking up – once you get a taste, theres no going back


I’ve realized that i don’t love you. I’m madly, deeply, crazily and totally in love with you.


I never expected love to come when it did, nor the way in which it came and unlike some people. I wasn’t waiting for it to come round. But then love found me, You found me. Love came straight at me, knocked me to the ground, made me blind and chucked me into the air. But when I fell, I fell into your arms. You softened my landing and made those dreaded seconds which I was falling worthwhile. That’s why I’m glad love found me, because I get to spend everyday with you, in your arms.


I need you
I need you to hold me
I need you to wipe away my tears
I need you to kiss me
But most importantly I need you to love me, because I love you. I love you more than anyone could ever contemplate


There’s always a reason for two people to come together, to stay together and last forever. They give each other something that no one else can and that’s what makes it magical.


Theres this little voice in my head, a dreaded thump in my chest telling me that you don’t love me, that you don’t want to be with me. It’s telling me that this is all an act for a bigger picture, that tomorrow you’ll come clean and tell me that I was just a stepping stone for another girl. I’m afraid you’ll wake up one morning and the feelings you have for me will disappear. I’m scared of losing you because I’ve never put this much effort into anything before, I’ve never taken a bigger risk. Everyday I’m with you, my heart is on line, but I’m hoping, wishing, that each morning you’ll wake up and still want me as a part of your life


Its amazing what colour can make us feel
We play in it
Fall into it
and wonder which it’ll be
we envy it
we change it and wonder where it went
it divides us and it unites us
yet the ironic thing is that a world of black and white would be just as intriguing, magical and mesmerizing



Jealousy. The most spiteful of all emotions. It tears friends and lovers apart. But whats the difference between jealousy and envy? Is there a difference? Then why is envy conveyed as a healthy emotion and jealousy a selfish habit? I don’t get jealous often, pissed and worried yes very often, but jealousy isn’t something that effects me much. Even with the numerous girls you hang with, chat with and are best buds with, I really wudnt mind if you went on about them while I was in you arms, or if you spent the whole day with them, so long as at the end of the day we’re together and I’m the girl you kiss on the forhead


You know, I’ve stopped crying as much. I don’t cry any more when I watch finding nemo or read peoples blogs. I don’t even cry when I see all those crime shows on tv anymore. I’m over all that shit now cause I really couldn’t care less about whats going on in others lives or in these fictional stories without a point. I’m saving my tears, because I know that some time soon, there will be a reason in MY life where I’ll need to bawl my eyes out.


I look at you from a distance and I see you laughing, talking, playing and sometimes just sitting there and I could just stand there all day watching you with a grin plastered onto my face wondering how I’m so lucky to have found you. Some one so hot, fun, nice, athletic, basically perfect, yet you choose to be with me. With my millions of flaws, how could someone as perfect as you, be with some one like me?


When you compliment me and I only say “thank you”, its because I’m speechless. You’re so gorgeous that it overcomes me. I cant bring myself to say anything because you’re worth so much more than any words could express. And all the things in my head that I could say don’t come out because there’s so many that the clog up at the tip of my tongue. One day I’ll write down everything about you that was in my head, but for now, since I’m not to great with all that corny shit, whenever I say “I love you”, take that as the biggest possible compliment.


The weirdest thought came into my head the other day, it was the memories of our msgs. The millions of texts and the phone calls that went on for hours. Those days seem like a lifetime ago because now I’m with someone else. I thought that there memories would hurt, but they don’t. They’ve shaped me into the person that I am today and for that I’m thankful cause I love my life/self at the moment :D


I’m over it. If you feel awkward, then that’s your problem, I don’t mind what you do with her anymore. I’ve realized and accepted that yous are going to be friends and I’m completely cool with it. Honestly


I’ve never actually heard you say those six words to me. You’ve written them, said it over msn and answered yes when I asked you, but when you actually said them, it just put me into a fluster


As Yoda would say: Do or do not, there is no try


Theres this guy I’m totally and madly in love with
I dunno what I’d do without him
Without him i’m literally nothing
And living would become pointless


I dunno how to tell him I love him more than I ever thought I could love anyone
I dunno how I’d cope if we weren’t together
I dunno if I should tell him “I love you” over and over again
I dunno if he finds me clingy
I dunno what to do with myself anymore cause I only ever think about him
I dunno why I love him so much
I dunno why I did, what I chose to do
I dunno who else to turn to when the rest of my world is collapsing
I dunno what I’d do with you, without your love


According to a recent study, two out of five men have a gene that makes them more likely to cheat. Those men have an abnormal reaction to vasopressin, a hormone that helps people bond with one another. Watch out ladies


You remind me of a poem I cant remember, a song that probably doesn’t exist and a place I’ve never been too, yet when you’re around I get that warm fuzzy feeling, I’m in love


Is sorry really ever good enough? All it is, is a five letter word and without actions, its pretty much pointless. But I can tell from the grin on your face that you love my pathetic (but sincere) apologies and me for groveling for your forgiveness