closer.

i honestly tried my best. i did all i could think of to get things back on track but you seemed to avoid all my efforts. i dont understand why you continue you ignore me and i'm always the one trying to make conversation. i kinda put things in perspective now and i'm no longer gonna embarrass myself and put in so much effort to get back someone who doesnt care. i know you'll be pissed after reading this, i know you're gonna hate me even more but its how i feel, i want to let you know that i was trying. i dont know whether or not you care any longer if we have a friendship but i do/did.

the next song i dedicate to you moonira (although some parts are a bit sexual, you'll get the main jist of it =P) totally love you (L)

Missin' You - Trey Songz
I can't stop missing you.
Wish I was there with you.
I can't stop missing you.
No, no, no, no.
I can't stop missing you (no).
Wish I was there with you (with you).
I can't stop missing you.
No, no, no, no.

I miss the way you kiss,
miss the way you wear them heels and make it switch.
Miss the way your hair blows in the wind.
And I miss you staying here 'til the morning,
Miss the way you put on your makeup.
Miss the way you love me too much.
It's everything about you baby.
Wanna know where you been lately.
Do you go out?
Do you still live at your old house?
Do you got somebody new in your life?
'cause I can't get you out of my mind.

And I wanna erase,
but I can't stop seein' your face.
And every girl I try to replace you with.
Why can't I get over it?
Simply cause I can't...

I can't stop missing you (can't stop).
Wish I was there with you (with you).
I can't stop missing you.
No, no, no, no.
I can't stop missing you (can't stop).
Wish I was there with you (with you).
I can't stop missing you.
No, no, no, no.
I can't stop...

missing everything you say,
missing all the crazy love we made.
Why'd you throw it all away?
I want you to know
It's been hell tryna do this without you here.
Baby, '07's supposed to be our year.
You confront my worst fears.
And I had my doubts,
every time you was going out.
'cause I knew you were telling me lies
and I can't get that outta my mind.

Wish I Could wake up and forget about you.
Not try
to call you when I know I want to
(Oh Wish I)
I gotta fight this feeling.
(Wish I)
Can't let it take over me.
(Wish I)
You just don't understand how much you were a part of me.

I can't stop missing you.
Wish I was there with you (with you).
I can't stop missing you.
No, no, no, no.
I can't stop missing you (can't stop).
Wish I was there with you (with you).
I can't stop missing you.
No, no, no, no (I can't stop, I can't stop missing you).

i'm back into music now as my escape. there was a period of time like these past few weeks where i barely listened to music and now im absolutely dependant on it again. since monday night i feel as though i'm incomplete without my music and now i like to express how i feel through songs, its so much easier. it amazing thinking that thoughts so simple could be expressed with such melody and detail. it's good knowing that you're not alone with these feelings, that others can feel like this too.


the bench is still there where we left it, thought you should know.