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farhin ahmed, but they call me chickie. i will make 2010 awesome.

Thursday, June 4

fuck man.

what is wrong with me? why am i sitting here crying about you? i love you, thats why. i really want it to be us again, just the two of us. one year man, its not what i thought it would have been, it was so much better. i remember when it was the other way around, now the tables have turned and im sitting here wondering what the fuck i'm supposed to do. why cant we be friends? why goddamit. thats what i regret most, why we cant still be friends, its what i want most of all; a friendship. now i wonder whether or not you really care about me, if you would do what i'd do for you. please dont tell me its too late, cause it's never too late. better late than never. never isn't an option, i dont want it to be an option. one day man, one day. its not over yet cause i haven't given up, im not going to give up. i cant forget everything that's happened, i dont want to, i want all of what we're going through now to be worth it. i cant say anymore that i want you to be happy no matter who you're with, i cant say that anymore cause its not true. right now i feel as though i could wait forever for you, it doesnt seem so impossible. i never thought i could feel like this about anyone and its for someone whos broken me down into several shattered pieces. you'll always be a part of my heart, you know that.
but when you told me how ever long ago it was that i'll always be a part of yours, im wondering if it still applys.

theres the two of us left behind now and i know its war, let the nuclear bombs drop

if you are reading this please say something to me, anything at all. i need to know what you think, how you're feeling.

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