no not yet.

i still dont get it. i dont think i ever will, its kind of hard to understand whats wrong but i guess if thats what you want ill have to live with it. its fucked up that im still waiting, i dont even know why. am i waiting for you or am i just waiting for this feeling to go away and trying to hold onto you until it does cause i wouldnt know what to do with myself otherwise. as crazy as it sounds i just want to let you know that yes i would wait forever for you. yes it would drive me insane, kill me inside and out, take over all my thoughts but its true, i willing to do all of that just to have you back. and this is where it gets complicated when i tell you how i feel. now you're just gonna distance yourself from me cause you dont want to get pulled back to where you were before and you might think that staying away from me will help me, that it will be better for me but your wrong. my head tells me that your not worth it, that your like every other guy but my heart wont forget everything we've been through, everything you've done for me.

i still watch you, i still cant help but smile when you get the ball in, i still wonder where you are when i cant see you, i still notice everything you do and i still wish you noticed me.



favourite quote (by aaron) - 2 guns held to my head. I'm holding one, you're holding the other. I'll lower mine when you lower yours.